Crassitude
Gosh. I don't know what's come over me lately. I've been, well, not myself. Talking smack behind Zuriel's back is just the start. But I don't really consider it "smack" because I'm telling the truth and my blog is just a way of venting. Right? Anyone care to comment? It's not like I'm directly spreading rumors around to where it would really take effect.And then I've been kinda of mean to people. I bought Salt and Vinegar chips for my brother the other night, well for all of us, but especially for him because he lovvvvvves Salt and Vinegar flavor, and when he opened the bag and started munching I said petulantly, "we're not eating the whole bag today, Leo." He said, "Yes we are." And then I said, "well, I'll just take those back then." And I did. And they are on the shelf still. Uneaten. All alone. Begging to be eaten. By us. But everyone refuses to eat them because we all have our pride. Especially me.
Then, I was eating some pound cake I bought from H-E-B, sitting on the coach next to Zuriel while watching a movie. He looked at me with big puppy eyes and vague but very visible druel on the corner of his mouth, "So what's that your eating?" I said bluntly, "Well, It's just regular pound cake and if you want some you can get some from the kitchen table." BAM. Just like that. No offering or sharing. He said, "Well, I just want a little piece." And I said, "Well, then you can go get some if you want it bad enough." :-( But let me explain...it's just that I really felt like getting back at him from earlier that day for making fun of me because I didn't know what the word crass meant. So, I got defensive. Sue me. Gosh but I should be the better person. I'm failing all these tests God is sending my way.
I really feel that way too. It's as if God sent us Zuriel for practice. Gods says,"Well, Rebecca here is you exact polar opposite in every way. If I were to create a person that would be a thorn in your flesh the rest of your days, this would be him. Egotistical, boastful, patronizing, womenizer, lukewarm, insincere. Now let's see what you're gonna do about it." Did I pass? Uh-uh.
So. Uh. I don't know what to do?...Why have I been so crass lately? (Yes. That's right. I know what the word means. NOW.). Well, all I can say is this too shall pass. hopefully.
p.s. crass-So crude and unrefined as to be lacking in discrimination and sensibility.
posted by Becca @ 7:57 PM
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