No Better Word than Stupidity
I am the kind of person that can't get away with anything (I couldn't be immoral if I tried). I don't know what common sense is, and I constantly make careless mistakes. I was telling my friend Nick the other day, that sometimes I just get fed-up with myself, you know? I just tire-out myself sometimes. So many negative things, in the past couple of months especially, keep happening because I can't get my FRIGGIN'-act together. There is just no better word than stupidity for all of this.Stupidity, StuPIDITY, STUPIDITY. Okay, got that off my chest.
For example, I ordered this Debit Card a gazillion years ago (Redeemed the debit card from my work by redeeming airpoints and it's esoteric, sorry). I'm waiting and waiting and still nothing. After a month, I decided to "inquire." I find out I was never supposed to throw the original one away (cuz it's reloadable). This stupidity would have been promptly avoided by simply just FRIGGIN' READING the fine print. Boo.
On another day, no sooner had I gotten on my bike did I receive a c.p. call. I always answer my c.p. (even on my bike). After I finished the conversation, I knew that I knew that I knew I should have just stopped, turned around, and placed it in my backpack, but I decided to slide it in my sweaty-tight-blue-jean-miniture pocket.
Entering my apartment (off 10th Street), I noticed the c.p. had misteriously dissappeared (Daaaaaaangit!). I knew it. I knew this would happen. I had to ride all the way back to the BSB, retracing my steps, looking for My C.P. I found it of course, all broken (but still functioning, the little sucker survived), after like an hour of searching.
And if the two things afore mentioned didn't make you think um, "Stupidity," this one will. Okay, so, I never lie, right?...well, rarely (and usually they're 'white-lies'). But on that blessed day, just to ruin it for myself (NOT), I decided to delibrately full-out lie to my manager about missing work. I said to myself, "I am going to make-up my hours anyway? So, I'll just let him think I am missing for a good reason." I mean, what's the big deal, right? Everbody fibs now and then, when giving a reason for skipping work.
I told Kurt, my manager, that I would be missing Saturday to see my family, (When I was really going to the A&M game with Andy Thrasher). So, being the experienced liar that I am, I start blatantly spouting sonnets of how I am going to the game and how I am going to have a blast and that James should sit with us since he is going too.
Stupidness! I just thought I would throw that out there again, in case you're not seeyun tha' trend.
So, next thing I know, my manager from Down the aisle overheard the convo, and said, "Becca, I though you were going to Austin!" Daaaaaangit. I totally got caught! I don't know why I lied, I'm not good at it, and I am more see-through than air itself. Stupid, stupid, stupid.
What I am most sad about is this decision left my character in shambles. And It's done, I can't take it back or rewind, I can't re-do, or call interference...and all for lying 'bout something soooo stupid.
One of the last things I remember my friend Ryan saying (he used to carpool with me and Nick) was, "honesty is the best policy." Now, granted, this wasn't the first time I heard this, but it was TRUE nonetheless. Why are all the simple things in life the hardest to keep. I think it is because they are the easiet to break. Yeah, I think that's why.
Hey, but these are growing pains, right? Maybe I learn next time around.
posted by Becca @ 12:07 PM
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